A plan was thought...

Jennifer and I had a long meeting at Alamanda Putrajaya yesterday. Things are clearer for us both now as how to dispose the centre in a smoother. Jennifer as usual saved the day by printing a step by step procedure we can look into.

We are preparing our profile and a few other things for our next meet up (Wednesday next week).

For now, I just want to chill in Tioman with Mimie and family + my diving friends. This will be my 2nd trip and my 6th dive. I am excited and not too nervous as to compared to the last dive.

I love Juha!!!

Long Distance Relationship

J and I have been far from each other since August this year. We are still very much together. There are moments where i find it too difficult to handle. 

bouncing back....higher?

I have come to terms that there is not going to be any take over within these next 4 months. I have decided to do  some adjustments and willing to change a lot of things before I try to get a new successor again.

At first I was going to give it all up totally, but there's no big bucks coming in any time soon, so I just have to keep on going.

I badly need to stratergize and make sure I can reduce the overhead and increase income till June.

I have called for a meeting and need help from the Kumon office.

I think this is the best thing for me to do, while waiting for answers from Juha. 

a mix of everything....

We had our first meeting with uncle who's responsible for our family this afternoon. The plan to start to build our house has started. Saw some drawing and ideas of how it's going to be like.

The management of funds is still unclear, but mom convinced me we should just be happy of what we'll be getting as this is our late father's family and they're all doing this out of favor. So, I'll accept and take it that way.

I had a few missed calls while I was there, 5 to be exact...could it be the "successor"? i don't even want to call back. I will not look back and will start to stratergize again.

Not Done Deal

Looks like I have to accept the fact that the deal of sales of my centre is off. The candidate, who was my school mate during high school, is now no where to be found. She hasn't replied to any messages and calls. I guess that is her way of saying "NO", but as a friend, i think that's a way to say "GET LOST!!!".

What am I to do right now?

A lot of plans playing through my mind .  To just close it without a successor and move on with my life.....

I am in the middle of planning to downsize my centre. Need to reduce overhead as soon as I can before my departure. The number of enrollment is already lower now.

I hope to be stronger from now on....

the tough gets going and going ....

Today was not any easier as to compared to yesterday. Early in the morning I was woken up by a BBM from a loyal staff warning me to be careful about 2 other staff. I've been feeling uneasy lately around them. I had a feeling it has to do with the Provident Fund Issue. I have been trying to pay, but we had no sufficient fund. I ended up being offered a loan from my staff. what an embarrassment!!! but i had to do it as to protect myself. Made payment, and banked in the salary and had a long chat with the two staff who have made be feel uneasy lately.

Showed them the evidence of my payment and told them to have some consideration about the whole issue as it's just tough for us.

I feel like like should just let go of my centre without a successor. Hoping for a real good windfall to come my way and I will start giving the 3 months notice.

I'm just tired and depressed and I want my life back. I want to live what is left of my life. Many times I don't feel like I have all that long to live. Don't really know why.

I hope life will change its direction real soon.

Amin.

PMS-ing!!!

What a challenging day it was emotionally. My head is spinning now and my body is weak. Due to caffeine from this morning I am still up.

Tomorrow is salary day for the staff. So, double ouch! For my pain.

Juha may be leaving me be for now. He did try to chat last night but I missed it as I was asleep.

Hope tomorrow is easier.