Birthdays

It sure is not nice to get older. I once wished a good friend "Happy Birthday" and I was told off. I have felt lousy before when it comes to my birthday. This year, after a long time, I'm feeling alright with birthdays. I'm even alright with declaring my age to the world through FACEBOOK!

My students are funny. When they ask me how old I am and when I tell them, they'd also offer to tell me how old their mom is. I thought that's pretty cute. They're comparing me and their mom.

Talk about comparing, once I was busy putting on my Body Shop Body Butter on my arms, a student was observing from far....but eventually came to me to smell. After smelling, she decided to ask me to be her mom!!! Because I smell nice. I just had to laugh!

at this point.....

Many times I loose sleep thinking about being with a family and children of my own. many times it makes me cry. I have once stopped being hopeful. Once I told myself, this is it. No children, no chance of being a mummy and the truth, I felt my world crumbled. i woke up every morning feeling numb. thinking i have nothing to look forward to. nothing to be excited about.

I left all that....I see a world of opportunity in front of me. whatever it or they may be. i'm going towards it. I have no other choice but to go forward!