Friends forever? or Not?

In life, we meet many people who sometimes turn out to be friends and some family. Some stay as friends, some come and go. Many friends cross our path, then go and come back again. Some were never in your life, then became close friends at one point in your life, then decides there's no chemistry and gone forever.

I'm blessed with many friends. I am blessed with a gift to make friends. I love those who are always in contact and respect you as a friend. I love those who cherish your presence. I love those who find love and happiness in being friends with me.

However, I'm only human. I make mistakes. I say the wackiest things at the wrong time. I dislike grumpy people. I hate people who like to swear and only have hate for other people. I wish to not be with friends who turn out this way. I don't wish to be around negative friends.

Life in itself is already full of challenge. Although it hurts to move on and forget about friends who have marked your life, sometimes, moving on is the only solution. Moving on and letting go. 

the tough gets going and going ....

Today was not any easier as to compared to yesterday. Early in the morning I was woken up by a BBM from a loyal staff warning me to be careful about 2 other staff. I've been feeling uneasy lately around them. I had a feeling it has to do with the Provident Fund Issue. I have been trying to pay, but we had no sufficient fund. I ended up being offered a loan from my staff. what an embarrassment!!! but i had to do it as to protect myself. Made payment, and banked in the salary and had a long chat with the two staff who have made be feel uneasy lately.

Showed them the evidence of my payment and told them to have some consideration about the whole issue as it's just tough for us.

I feel like like should just let go of my centre without a successor. Hoping for a real good windfall to come my way and I will start giving the 3 months notice.

I'm just tired and depressed and I want my life back. I want to live what is left of my life. Many times I don't feel like I have all that long to live. Don't really know why.

I hope life will change its direction real soon.

Amin.