I have not written here for a few weeks now. I felt like I had to take a long rest after what I would describe as a 'near death' experience. I got what I prayed for. I get to keep running my centre for a bit more.
They want me to find a successor. The definition of successor, they can't even give in detail.

 I can still accept what had happened and am learning a lot from this lesson of life.

J and I have decided to keep our dreams but will postpone things we had wanted to happen earlier.
My responsibilty for the children and their parents at the centre is at top priority now. J on top of my love interest, but I feel our relationship is strong enough to survive this.