My feelings now is better than the past weeks. Reading the book called THE SECRET also helps. It has somehow calm me down. Praying and zikir strengthens my inner spirit and I am better at coping.
I have been crying everytime I think about all the children not having a place to receive their medals and no classroom to continue their studies.
Recently, Inesh ordered a glass trophy for this year's award. It kinda tickled me because, that's how my students have been with me. They are just comfortable enough to tell me what would make them happy.
I thank Allah for this journey as it has definitely changed me as a person.

Spoke to Ms Y and she sounded happy. Mission accomplished. Personally, I think she did well. Alhamdulillah! Now, waiting for the result, and I should continue my zikir.

Today was quite peaceful at the centre. I don't feel very nervous about the future for some reason when I was in the class just now. I keep thinking of Ms M calling me to tell me the wonderful news. I should just rest and relax for a bit right now till Tuesday. I don't think they can come up with the result by tomorrow anyway.
Tried to call Ms Y, the candidate who was interviewed today, but she didn't pick up. I just wanted to hear her experience and maybe evaluate from there.

My candidate to take over should now be interviewed by Ms M and a few more staff. I have been reading the zikir in my heart, praying that everything will be smooth and accepted by them. There us no reason why they would not accept Ms Y as my successor.
By Tuesday afternoon, Ms M will call to tell me that everything is fine and my candidate has been accepted and they will start training her immediately.

From THE SECRET:

If you are complaining, the law of attraction will powerfully bring into your life more situations for you to complain about. If you are listening to someone else complain and focusing on that, symphatizing with them, agreeing with them, in that moment, you are attracting more situations to yourself to complain about.

I must only be positive from now on.

I am coming out of all these difficult time I'm facing as a winner. My students will still have a centre to go to after June. The office is going to be so sorry that they're not grateful to instructors who only know love and passion in doing their role.

Tomorrow, my candidate will mesmerize them with her similarity in attitude and character and will be chosen to continue my battle.

Will keep praying!!!!

The National Conference weekend was a challenging one. It gave me some kind of mixed feelings. Good and bad.

I managed to secure a meeting with the Big Boss and 2 other staff. I managed to say out all the things that's been bothering me and things that needed clarification. Mr O whom I had admired so much before turned out to be a "dodo" after all. From the meeting, I can gather that he just can't make a concrete decision. The way he explained things, how to value a centre, how much value I should put on the business.....seems that to him instructors are not important anymore.  What he preaches during the National Conference.....I think he himself felt guilty about it. At the end of the conference, he even looked nervous and could not see eye to eye with me. I just hope it's nothing else that he's hiding cos if he is, he's wasting a lot of people's time.

At this point, I just pray and hope that everyone is working sincerely. We're putting around 230 students future at stake. I hope they realize it.

My battle is not over. They have agreed to have an orientation for my candidates this Thursday. Even though my previous candidates pulled out yesterday, I still have some hope for new ones. I'm meeting the new one tomorrow. Please please please....make this work.