Memory

Right now..

A lot of nice things happened between the roller coaster ride to now. The battle isn't over yet, but the road looks better paved ahead.
I have had the opportunity to travel to a few places. Every trip was a journey of life for me. I call them 'ME' time. I call them opportunity of a lifetime. I call them a way god wants to show me what the struggle is all about.
I would like to start a travelling blog soon, so that I can type in how I feel during my travels.

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Almost there.....

I feel things are almost at the end now. I know the whole process will take at least 4 to 5 months after the orientation and interview. They are trying to organize an orientation and interview by mid December.

I have 2 parties interested in being a successor and now busy going through the internship process at the centre.

I have not written here for a few weeks now. I felt like I had to take a long rest after what I would describe as a 'near death' experience. I got what I prayed for. I get to keep running my centre for a bit more.
They want me to find a successor. The definition of successor, they can't even give in detail.

 I can still accept what had happened and am learning a lot from this lesson of life.

J and I have decided to keep our dreams but will postpone things we had wanted to happen earlier.
My responsibilty for the children and their parents at the centre is at top priority now. J on top of my love interest, but I feel our relationship is strong enough to survive this.

I'm on my way to Singapore by bus and I have always find it relaxing to have some quiet time alone in the bus. 5 hours of doing anything I like. I do like to travel.

I am also thinking about a few things. When things get a little heavy in my head, I remind myself to live life a day at a time. I should not worry about the future as everything is in god's hand. I should also not grief about the past as what's done or happened, let them all be bygone.

I'm reading this book called 'how starbucks saved my life'. How this guy had everything in life; family, good job, beautiful home and money one day lost it all. What had happened to me for the last few months almost felt that way. I was so scared and sad. I could have lost my mind losing it all.

From now on, I must plan more carefully. I have to also be extra careful about money. No more multi level marketing intervention whatsoever!

Yesterday was the final meeting between me and the parent company. Torturous! I had to endure 4 hours seminar before that.

At the meeting, I was attended by the vice president for their branding and advertisement in New Jersey, USA office. It WAS like a counseling session. The Japanese guy was non stop talking and talking, telling me what their policy is all about and why their change of direction regarding handover centres.

I am determined, if there is not going to be a handover, i will continue running the centre till end of 2012. Still need to discuss things with J.

I was at the morning seminar at the head office today. The seminar was quite a good thing as it took my mind off things. The 1 hour break that I have right now.

 I must take it as a good thing as well. I'm in the surau now preparing for zuhur. My meeting with big boss will be after the seminar at 4. I am very nervous but I will face it with bravery. Insya'allah.