Handed in the Letter of Intention yesterday. It feels like a burden lifted from my chest. My responsibility for the last 13 yrs, soon will be over. The area manager made a visit yesterday but it'll be her last visit because she is resigning.

Things feel slightly better today. A bit more refreshing compared to yesterday. There will be one parent's meeting, so I should love that. Area manager will also make a visit. She said the office asked her to persuade me to stay.

Today, managed to file most of my year 2010 bills. And also managed to relax. I felt kinda stressed up today.

Tomorrow, my area manager will be visiting and I planned to give her my Letter of Intention. It is tough but it is something I must do.
I must be calm and be sure. Insya'allah, things will be better for me by end of 2011.
Amin!

My good friend suggested reading books recommended by Network 21, so I picked up Simon Thomson's book:WHILE YOU'RE IN A TRAFFIC JAM, I'M PLAYING GOLF!.
I think reading will keep my mind occupied.

Phone blog

No U Turn

That's what it is when it comes to freedom of speech. You can say what you like, but once you're not careful, it can eat you up again. It has happened to me many times, but I'm still doing it again and again.

Today, my mom's advise to me was "Be Careful what you express in FB!!!!" I have just hurt the feelings of my cousin from the remarks I did about her dad. I was just upset, disappointed and stupid.I have to let it be. Do my own things and just be grateful of whatever I have and may never have, even though it's meant to be for me. It's only material things, and it's not the only source of happiness.

I need to grow up!!! and be calm.

signing off: a hyper active woman!

Feeling so small

I woke up at 4am this morning realizing I have nothing in this world that can guarantee of my survival till I die.I can only strengthen my spiritual believe and my faith.

I live in a family home, that can be taken away anytime. I run a learning centre, that can be taken away anytime, even after 12 years of hardwork.

I know I will be able to fight all these. Everything that you own while you're still living is just for awhile. You bring what you believe inside you till you die. That matter.

For now, I have to live on a day to day basis.

I want to cut my hair!!!!!

I have kept  my hair for a few years now. Today is the first time after so long, I feel like cutting it all short again. Will see how I fee by end of this month.

I don't like loneliness

I have been suffering from this for years now. It's tough when as such, my character is not a loner. I like having people around me. I like being in contact with people all the time. Friends, I have so many. the closest sometimes look like they're suffocated, some seems to avoid, but it could only be my imagination and my feelings.

I'm always excited when there's happy news. I have to stay sober and calm next time. I must change. I think adults keep things to themselves and not always share it with their friends. Adults also have to always be selfish.

I sometimes feel so left out and so out of place. I know it's me, and it's not the people around me. Like always, there's only me to be blamed.

Now that I know how to blog from my phone, I think I can blog more. At the moment the blog is restricted to only me, until everything is settled at the centre.

I'm on sick leave today as I'm having cough and flu.

I'm testing my mobile upload

The journey continues

I have stopped writing in this blog cos I was in a terrible state of mind. Things have gotten better and I'm ready to report again.

I have finally decided to hand in the Letter of Intention to the head office. I should be looking into "freedom" latest by June this year.

A lot is in store. I met someone 2 years ago and we are finally seriously dating now and started to talk about our future life together. In my future life, i will have to embrace a life of a diplomat's wife.  First assignment for me: Helsinki, Finland. Who could have dreamed of that??? My very first pen-pal came from Finland. A place called Kausala. Been writing to her since I was 12. Little did I know that my "journey" as a gypsy will start in that very country.

i shall start preparing myself. When Mr Diplomat asked me what is the thing that I'd like to bring from Malaysia if I have to leave Malaysia. I took a moment and the first thing I could think of was...spices!!!!!!!!! yeah it's related to food!!!