on a more positive note

The candidate to replace me as an instructor came on Monday and Tuesday for centre attachment. That shows more commitment. We spoke some more about it and more and more, I'm convinced that she is serious enough to do it. I have to keep on praying and hoping. I have to be happy that the end is near.

Juha text me when he was in the boat before he departed (Helsinki to Stockholm) and promised to get me a Stockholm t-shirt.

Jennifer and I bought a return ticket to Siem Reap for June travel. We will be joined by Teacher Tess and Arlene. I always enjoy a girly holiday. It's time for Angkor Wat. I also wish to book flight for umrah and travels to Europe in August.

I have a futsal team with great gals! My friends from BBGS. I feel happy when I'm with them.

Most of my little students (girls especially) still allow me to hug them. I love the bonding.

Blame it on PMS or the weather, I do feel extremely down today. This happens every month or every other month. This week, everyday, I would come up with issues that on normal days I can usually handle. On Monday, it was the short of fund for royalty payment. On Tuesday, it was over an email and whatsapp chat I had before lunch. On Wednesday, the shortpayment of royalty payment issue crept up. And today, everything is against me.

Should I go back for counseling help? I should consider it. I am facing a lot of changes this year and I must prepare myself for all kinds of weather.

Right now, I wish I have more money and less debt. Right now I am missing Juha and his company. Right now I just want to break away.

is the end near?

I absolutely have no idea. My successor went through the 2 preliminary interviews successfully. They're waiting for a candidate from Putra Jaya to go through hers and probably start training in March.

I hope everything will be smooth. At the moment I'm stressed up about the silence from the candidate.

I hope by next week, something is moving ...

Memory

Right now..

A lot of nice things happened between the roller coaster ride to now. The battle isn't over yet, but the road looks better paved ahead.
I have had the opportunity to travel to a few places. Every trip was a journey of life for me. I call them 'ME' time. I call them opportunity of a lifetime. I call them a way god wants to show me what the struggle is all about.
I would like to start a travelling blog soon, so that I can type in how I feel during my travels.

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Almost there.....

I feel things are almost at the end now. I know the whole process will take at least 4 to 5 months after the orientation and interview. They are trying to organize an orientation and interview by mid December.

I have 2 parties interested in being a successor and now busy going through the internship process at the centre.

I have not written here for a few weeks now. I felt like I had to take a long rest after what I would describe as a 'near death' experience. I got what I prayed for. I get to keep running my centre for a bit more.
They want me to find a successor. The definition of successor, they can't even give in detail.

 I can still accept what had happened and am learning a lot from this lesson of life.

J and I have decided to keep our dreams but will postpone things we had wanted to happen earlier.
My responsibilty for the children and their parents at the centre is at top priority now. J on top of my love interest, but I feel our relationship is strong enough to survive this.