must tone up...

I found this 10 mins pilates video



I should do this every morning after subuh and start the day early.

A peek to my room

I can already see how happy I'd be once this place is ready. At this point, I want the walls to be lavender with off white lace as a curtain and white furniture.
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relax relax relax.....

I came home with a terrible headache. I even feel like I was going to throw up.

After solat, decided to search in youtube yoga for relaxation. i am half way done....and feeling much better.



above is the link to he video.

More progress on the house

It's happy time to see the progress.
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Something bothersome???

Woke up at 5am today and after a few minutes of debate within myself, I got up, switched on the computer and did my first load of laundry.

Solat subuh and did my Yassin. Swept the floor and put in my 2nd load of laundry.

Now, I'm all showered and already lying down on the bed again.

I'm too scared to open the windows. My reptilephobia!!! My imagination!!! Snakes may come in the room without me noticing.

I'll just enjoy the chirping birds.
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Help is there...

But it's never enough.

I was hoping that an uncle who is resposible for our welfare would distribute our money sooner, but it hasn't happened.

Today, I've been told to get some small amount that he is willing to give us.

I feel sad, just weak and sad. I need financial help and I hope I will find someone soon to take over. At least I will get a rightful amount under my name.
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done this before....

This week it's all about adjusting to 1 less staff. Today was super busy as one staff also decided to go on leave.

Candidate #2 came for her first training today. She seemed alright on her first day. Hope she is the one.

Raihan gave me the best news today, that she will stay, for at least for 2 more years.

Alhamdulillah.

Diplomat Jokes

Diplomat Jokes

Missing....

Every month, when my hormone starts to act up (it gets worse after i turned 40-or was it because the love of my life is away??) i get weepy. I cry for many reasons.

Tonight it's all about missing someone.

AYAH:  how I wish he is still around. but if he is still around, I don't think I'd be as independent and as strong as I am right now. Allah has planned everything for a reason. I so miss him. I still cry like a baby sometimes wanting him to be by my side and protecting me once again. I feel very low and weak right now. I have no one I can run to and cry for help. My mother is there to support me emotionally. Alhamdulillah. Al-Fatihah to my beloved Ayah.

JUHA:  I miss his presence. Him being around give me some kind of strength when my heart is torn. He has a calming way to make me think sensibly. I pray that everything from now on will be much easier for us both. It has been challenging for the last 3 years, but we know our love is pure.

www.marcandangel.com/2010/11/15/12-dozen-places-to-self-educate-yourself-online/a reminder of basic of life.

Izza's last day

It's been fun to get extra help from Izza. Hope she will now be happy with her new place and her pregnancy.
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Blog vs social network

For the past years, social network influence has been very strong. People sometimes go through life thinking "hey! This will make a good status update!" Or "I want to share this picture with my network". I think the touch in writing will be lost and it cultivates the habit to blurt out and sometimes unnecessarily. I for sure have an issue with that. I shall be more careful now in preparing for my next life.
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The power of Attraction

This is what I want to see myself doing real soon. With my own!!!
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I need money!!!

Business has been so slow lately. I have been struggling. I have lots of debt on my back. If I start listing, I may just puke. If I start to do my accounts, I may get diarrhea.

Every month, it's just about making ends meet.

I can't even remember how it feels like to go shopping for myself.

I keep getting myself in trouble by making plans that needs money. For the next few months, I have to stop tennis, stop eating out or meeting friends outside unnecessarily.

I just have to make this work. Somehow.
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Posting myself away

Sometimes I wish I can just put a stamp on me and post it to Kauniainen, Finland
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On the love front....

Things are happening between me and Mr J. The same person I've been going out with for the last 3 years. He is the love of my life. We find comfort, happiness, tenderness, support, respect and love in each other.

Right now, we're both hoping that he gets to do voluntary work in Afghanistan. If that happens, I should tie the knot very soon.

I feel my Jodoh is with him. Insya'Allah.

open as usual...

The centre is still running. My wish to downsize it is not really a good idea, but my wish to reduce the overhead is happening. Izza is leaving this month. In fact tomorrow is her last day. She's been helpful with the Multiplication and Division area.

Restructuring is not too difficult this time. the number of students is under 200 right now. Manju is going to take care of the marking and preparing of C and D. and Chelvi will be helping with teaching C & D. I will be in charge of the lowest to 2A and C & D. Fun!!!

The good news is, training of successors will start next week. So, we'll have extra help starting next week. I do hope from now on, it'll be smooth and in the end, a successful take-over.

Financial wise, it's been tough. too tough to think. BUT, next month is my trip to Siem Reap. I don't even know how that happened. And again, thanks to my good friend, I am also going for the National Conference and the South East Asia & Oceania Conference on the first weekend of June.

Tough it may be.....but life goes on. 

Our new home

This is the latest progress. It should be ready by August. I cannot wait.
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Friends forever? or Not?

In life, we meet many people who sometimes turn out to be friends and some family. Some stay as friends, some come and go. Many friends cross our path, then go and come back again. Some were never in your life, then became close friends at one point in your life, then decides there's no chemistry and gone forever.

I'm blessed with many friends. I am blessed with a gift to make friends. I love those who are always in contact and respect you as a friend. I love those who cherish your presence. I love those who find love and happiness in being friends with me.

However, I'm only human. I make mistakes. I say the wackiest things at the wrong time. I dislike grumpy people. I hate people who like to swear and only have hate for other people. I wish to not be with friends who turn out this way. I don't wish to be around negative friends.

Life in itself is already full of challenge. Although it hurts to move on and forget about friends who have marked your life, sometimes, moving on is the only solution. Moving on and letting go.